a crispity-crunchity dive

I must admit, this mocha cookie crunch is pretty yummy-in-my-tummy! I usually don't like getting anything from Starbucks due to their overpriced coffee and my fear of becoming addicted..but I can see why people come here all the time. I'm currently at a Starbucks..doing work! Who knew? Ahaha, I'm 35min away from home and I just met with one of my scriptwriters who has officially welcomed himself on board!!!!! Gawd. I am so blessed to have him and my Ate Jen helping me too. She was a..[ahh, sun is burning my bicep] past coordinator and it makes me comfortable when I see exactly how much fun she's had with her own production. She's become a stronger person because of it and I can only hope that I will grow from this year. Who knows what this new position will entail, but something is telling me that I will definitely be a different person after the year is over. I'm scared. I'm frightened..but I'm looking forward to it!

Aja! Aja! Fighting!

Here goes everything!

GUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRL

My favorite episode of Fish Hooks ^__^ Am I the only one who still watches cartoons these days? Shellsea at 2:34 is too funny!

My other favorite characters aside from Shellsea would be: Oscar, Clamantha, and Koi. Too funny!

Koi in her natural habitat haha x)

mag-adventure tayo!

ANONG ORAS NGAYONNNN??

Okay, Okay..I told myself that I would buckle down and get some work done but I got distracted ;_____; I mean how can I not share how amazing my Bebeh is? He quickly whipped this up for me today and it is beyond awesome!

"Smells Like Red" Marceline of Adventure Time by IMDSound

Come on..I mean how can you say no to that?? This was meant for sharing!

"I will not get distracted! Nuh, No, Mm-mm, nao, noh, noo!" hehe

Elepante

le continued....

Anyway, fast forward to present time: I decided that I would draw him something simple and elegant. One creature that fascinated me in particular was the graceful: Elephant! After I found a picture of an elephant, I was determined to sketch it out on a white tapered board:

Step 1) Scaling the Elephant

 Step 2) Sketching and Water Color

Step 3) Glitterfy the shitake mushrooms out of it!

"An elephant never forgets."

This is my version of an Indian Elephant that would usually be lavished in jems, jewels and powdered colors for celebrations or weddings. 

Media used:

• BASE: Pencil (Sketch); Yellow/Orange/Red/Purple Water Colors
• LAYERS: Glitter Glue, Confetti, Metallic Maple/Fall Leaves, Stickers and my very own Childhood Jems
• OUTLINE: Permanent Pen/Black Sharpie and Newspaper clippings (p.s. try and look for my name in the newspaper!)
  
  
  I love you Bebeh.

Mame-shibaaa!

Since I have an artist as a boyfriend, I decided I'd have a take on a couple different use of media that my Totoro wallet could offer...

Mame-shibbbaaaaa!

While my boyfriend was away back home in Okinawa earlier this warm summer, I tried to think of what to get him. Frustrated by hours of attempting to think of what to get for him, I thought I'd try creating something for a change. He has inspired me since the day I started to get to know him better. Little did I know that he was extremely talented...with his hands! ;D

I was in disbelief the first time I was in his apartment, when his best friend/room mate, Gerry let me flip through one of his sketch books. He wasn't home during  those first two hours I was there. Yet, I was so amazed by this person, who I barely even knew at the time, but was able to produce these incredible sketches of what seemed to consist of mostly women. They all had unique characteristics with a sort of anime-like style. Since then, I became interested in him more and more. Later when he arrived home, he came in the room only to find me, Gerry and my friend Kim watching Mame-shiba! Unfortunately, he thought we were all high. Oh wait, no. That was Kilo.  -____-

korra

as if my boyfriend wasn't amazing enough already, he goes and draws this:

Book One: Air of Legend of Korra by IMDSound of House Fugrad

If you enjoy this piece, you should check out his other art work:
  http://www.imdsound.deviantart.com/  
He goes by 'IMDSound' aka my talented boyfriend hehe
♥

He sorta makes me wanna check out Avatar: The Legend of Korra now~
...or I'll "LOTR" it and wait 5 years from now when the hype's over. Legolas 'til I die muthatruckas!

soooobrang mainit sa loob

Yayy, my Mom is finally letting us use the AC in our house! This was me everyday for the past two weeks leading up to today's use of air conditioning. Dammmmmm fans:

a fan blowing hot air into my hot face

chuggin' on!

*major-sigh*  yet another unsuccessful day~ I should be getting ready for my friend's Aamel going away party but I had originally planned to show up late so I can get in some work for FCN done. I have yet to finish the script. Right now I'm trying to find the right words to make my perks sound convincing. Trying to raise $15,000+ is not easy. Why the "major-sigh"?  Because I became occupied, with discouraging thoughts. Fortunately  not about FCN work. 

I don't know if it is because I am a girl? Maybe that is why I get down on myself every now and then for the way I look, the way I carry myself, why I worry about what others think of me? Does my genetic code as a young girl ensue thoughts of insecurity on purpose to torture me? 

Let's admit, not being the "first" in any parts of any relationship doesn't make you feel so high and mighty. Firsts always mean something to someone and there's proof of it anytime they bring up the past. It doesn't feel good to know, for any girl or guy to hear the past relationships or friendships your significant other has had before you walked into the picture. I have always been insecure about how others view me and it has always held me back. At the end of the night, who can I call my truest and bestest friends? Probably two. Two that I know will always be there for me. But they have their own lives and although it may seem I have plenty of friends to turn to, I have very few people that I feel comfortable opening up around. I am not all that interesting and I blame my lack of adventure for holding me back. I am always fearing the repercussions and the moment I jump the gun, all comes crashing down..or a cop shows up. ..joke* What I mean is, when I do take a chance, whether the outcome may possibly entail good or bad consequences, I always end up getting in trouble for the slip I made. I can never do anything "bad" without getting caught; so I just give up meddling in risky business all together. That, and I have such a guilty conscious that I can't even sleep at night without tossing around my pillows and blankets to feel comfortable again.

Anyway..totally shifted gears...Well basically, in my current relationship and my past relationship, I've always had to adjust to the doubts of any lingering feelings that they may have held onto (not particularly ex-girlfriends,) but girl-friends. Claiming that it was a "crush"or "that was before" and the famous "it's not even like that....anymore". Is it because I've never had a crush on any of my close friends? Am I sorry that I have never once thought to be a possible homie-hopper? Sorry, but thas just not how I doo :P I thought that in my new relationship, I would never have to worry about those insecurities, but sadly...I am. The last girl was the sweetest, most popular and smartest girl in the school. She was the girl-next-door. LITERALLY. Practically lived right across the street. This time, not so much. I only met her once, but apparently, she is benevolent-hearted and just so happened to be the first girl who made in effort in talking to my once-extremely-shy (current) boyfriend. The other day, she texted him and a flush of past insecurities engulfed my body. I had this strange feeling that he once liked her, which he admitted. I definitely am not worried about her... surprisingly, she seems honest and I can trust that she would treat my boyfriend as a a friend and will not over-step her boundaries. That much, I know I can trust. With the last relationship ending in doubts and logged-in facebook messages with other girls, I couldn't help but questioning my trust for my new boyfriend. The girl is sweet, and after meeting her one time, I can't blame him if he'd make in effort in wanting to re-kindle a good friendship. I guess all I'm asking is that for once, I hope that I am good enough. I may not have an impact on every person in the group like she did, I may not have his friends having little crushes on me, it's just..for once, all I'm hoping for is that I am good enough.

No one should settle for less, but I myself, is all I can offer. I have this urge to up my game to compensate my jelly belly. Maybe a new hair-cut will do? Make-up perhaps? Fuck that actually, that's not me. I'll just keep chugging my choo-choo and I'm not stopping for no one. Okay, yes I will. I'll only stop for people who give me a reason to. Until then, I'm chugging. Just excuse the water ladies and gentlemen for the ride will be flooded with insecurities for a while. It won't be long and if you stay, I promise that it'll be clear down the track.